1.
When the inevitable happens
When my mortality fades into nothingness
I always wonder if the evidence of my crime will be found
Will I be declared missing?
How long will everyone look for me before they forget
How long does it take to forget someone existed
How long would it take to find the body
Does the memory fade away like mortality
Does it stay like the weight in my chest?
2.
Shake like a bough of willow trees, you do it naturally… – Hozier
I’m dancing at 4am to songs you wouldn’t have been able to stand
My body involuntarily moving to beats
I arch my back, throw my hands in the air and I dance.
Here, I am Beyonce.
My body is fluid, moving in ways I didn’t think were possible.
This is how we survive
By dancing
I once learnt that some plants stretch and stretch till they find light. They would naturally bend towards the direction of light to survive.
That’s what dancing does to me.
I’m bending my body towards light
I’m bending my body towards joy
In whatever direction that is, this body will move.
So when I throw my hands in the air and let the music guide me, I hope it guides me towards joy. I hope the music leads me towards light and it always does.
It always does.
This is how we survive
By dancing
Johap Agbo (she/her), 19, is an igbo girl from Nigeria. She’s currently a law student based in Nigeria and writes as a form of self expression. She can be found on Twitter @johapisgrowing_
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